heyyyyy!! lolx. its been years since my last post. haha. been so busy!! now i finally fully understand why the sec 4s blogs are always outdated. theres no time to go online at all! and my life is super boring now. its like everyday extra lessons after school den chiong home and study for e tests e nxt day. sucks man.

somehow now havent been studying much for e tests. cant be bothered anymore. not really cant be bothered. i care. but somehow my actions dont reflect my feelings. i want to care. but i cant bring myself to do it anymore. you get tired you know. and its not exactly the best feeling everyday living this kinda life.

sometimes i wonder whats e point of chionging so hard. so if [and this is a gigantic if] i do get single digit for my l1r5 will i be happy? happy yes. but to think i wasted one whole year of my life studying??!?!!?!? ok i admit its not wasted. i mean we are learning new stuff and everything. but come on. how much of what we're learning now is really gonna be with us for life always stumps me. does it make me a better person just because i can do differentiation?!? am i a worse person because i cant get full marks for everything!??! anyway how much of this is really going to matter when we say bye to earth and go up there to see him? im definitely not going to spend my life doing maths related stuff so why do i have to crack my head thinking of solutions to weird problems when the reason we cant get the answer is coz ms ctc PRINTED WRONGLY?!?!??! wtf.

anyway well, after ranting on and on at the injustices of this world we still hafta crash back to reality. so. to all the sec fours out there...just contd to jiayous and...take care!

a star fell from the sky;
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